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12:12 am - I am so freakin happy!!! <3

Hey people,

I am so happy!! I asked Hannah to the Spook and she said yes. So we danced there and now we're goin out officialy. I am so happy I'm goin out with her. I love her. But i couldn't believe it when she actually said yes to go to the Spook with me. And we almost didn't dance but at the last slow song (Far Away - Nickleback) I had pulled her over to the side to tell her why i hadn't asked her to dance and she gave me one of those well-why-not-now looks and I asked her. Of course since it was my first time dancing with someone I was nervous and I kinda went a little to fast. And then while we were waitin for our buses to be called she musta been able to tell I was nervous cause she's like "Don't be so nervous". Then when they called my bus she pulled me back to say goodbye in her own way. Best moment of my life. I really liked dancin with her too even though Ryan and them were being complete asses about it I just didn't care any more. It was just like no matter what they said it didn't matter cause I knew that what I was doing was the right thing to do. But then Hannah kicked Ryan, so Ryan Kicked her so I kicked him and he kicked me below the belt. But as soon as I'd recovered from that we kept dancing. Thanks to Hannah I feel like whatever they say it doesn't matter. And besides I'm the one who's actually got the balls to ask someone to dance and then ask them out. And I'm the only one of the guys who currently has a girlfriend. But it feels so good to have someone that you know you like and they like you back. I just can't get over the feeling that I have when I'm around her. But when we were dancing it felt like the perfect moment like nothing could go wrong. I just never wanted the moment to end. And yes I Know this all sounds really stupid but it's all true, I really felt this way. I just felt that by putting this all in my live journal I'd feel even better and I do. I just wish that the Spook had never ended. And that every minute I'm not with her is torture to the greatest extent. Like the time we're not together never ends. And tonight I showed her a picture of me as a baby and she said "awww you were so cute and you still are" and I couldn't believe it. It was the first time anyone had complimented me like that, and it meant so much to me coming from her. It meant the world to me. And then later she told me she loved me for the first time. That meant even more to me. All those days that i would be in French and she'd be in Ms. K's room and I could see her across the hall and she'd wave to me secretly I couldn't understand cause it was more a loving wave then a hello wave. But know I understand why. She liked me all that time!!! I never really knew, I suspected she did but I never really knew. I really miss her already and I've only not seen her for about a day now. I can't wait to see her on Monday. Neither of us has told our parents yet and we're not sure when we will. I figure I will tell them after the next dance cause I know she'll ask if I danced with her again and i'll say yes and she'll probably start gettin suspicious. But when we do even if our parents disapprove we'd probably still secretly go out. Ok well that's all I've got so I'll write again real soon bye.

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